minus:nula

My Darling Brett

2010-05-31T23:51:00.003+02:00

for what it's worth
i left a note on the door
saying things i never had the courage to
say to your face
i..i..i..
it's never too late
if you'd like me to stay
drop a chain around my neck and
tattoo me with your false kisses
i hope i can still startle you
i hope you still like to
make love with a knife to your throat
i can find someone new
to tie me up and beat me beat me
and if i find you i'll cut your fucking heart out
uncuff me
i love you
i love you
and when you're done
start all over again

20:14

2010-03-30T23:21:00.001+02:00

Na precepu med
resničnostjo in tvojim svetom
si pilim nohte in
osvajam mimoidoča dekleta.
Vračajo mi poglede s praznimi očmi.
Vračajo mi poglede, to je bistveno.
Semafor mi v morseovi abecedi sporoča
naj se spokam od tu.
Pokličem taksi in se peljem
dvakrat okoli mesta.
Ko potujem proti vzhodu, vrtim čas nazaj.
Ko potujem proti vzhodu, se čas pospešuje.
Izstopim, kjer sem vstopil.
Na mesto, kamor sem položil nogo, narišem zelen križ.
V polomljenem ritmu ga osvetljuje umirajoča cestna brljivka.
Osušim si obraz in ti grem naproti.

To je uvod v moj nov blog: CalypsoFolie

500 days of Summer

2010-03-09T19:18:00.002+01:00

There's two options, really: Either she's an evil, emotionless, miserable human being, or, she's a robot.

TOM

Before Sunrise

2010-03-09T19:15:00.000+01:00

Memory is a wonderful thing if you don't have to deal with the past.

CELINE

številka.

2010-02-18T09:36:00.001+01:00

Pišem pesem, praznino brišem
S krvjo podpišem
Pogodbo
o financiranju
Rabim novo vojno.

objemi jo vendar!

2009-12-16T23:47:00.006+01:00

pritisnem
__napišem
____izrišem
resniccco

iz nosu mi teče kri.

prebarvam
__prodam
____oropam
poloviccco

plačam za lasten atentat.

grizem si ustnice in odgrinjam zavese
gnetem misli v pesteh
__vedeževalka mi pravi:
____pusti plastelin,
objemi jo vendar!

signali.

2009-12-10T09:22:00.001+01:00

izvirnik: Kje si Romeo? (haiku) - Iz Mavrice Stkana
tudi na: MinusMavrica / VilinkaSnežinka

Iščem tvoje ime v nepotiskanih knjigah.
Iščem tvoj obraz v telefonskem imeniku.
Iščem tvoj podpis na moji koži.

Štejem modrice.
Toliko kot imam modric,
tolikokrat si odšla.
Tolikokrat sem se vrgel s strehe.
Tolikokrat sem se pobral.
Vsakič znova.

Roke iztegnem, proti praznini,
a ko jih sklenem, si v mojem objemu ti.
Tvoj dih na moji koži, tvoji lasje med mojimi.

V nebo ti pošiljam signale,
zažigam nebotičnike in cirkuške šotore.
Zažigam resnost in veselje,
vse kar imam.
Naj te doseže.

(minus:nula)

The Hunger: The face of Helene Bournouw

2009-12-10T09:06:00.002+01:00

"To lose oneself.
To fall head over heels.
To drown in a sea of love.
I mean...
That's always the point. Isn't it?"

THE HOST

norost.

2009-08-22T23:00:00.003+02:00

izgubljam vero v ljudi.
vsi vihtijo nože in moj hrbet...
težko je najti mesto, kjer je koža še cela. neprebodena.
ko se gledam v ogledalu v svojih očeh vidim starca,
čakam, da me kdo vrže skozi okno, da se razletim v tisoč iskric na asfaltu.

kotalkam se po avtocesti,
ker vem, da imajo premikajoče tarče rajši.
na vogalu prodajam igle polne bencina.
po mojih žilah se pretaka ogenj.
čakam, da me kdo zabode z njo, da postanem ognjemet.

praznujem nihilizem in apatijo.
vsak dan čakam tvoje pismo,
z antraks poljubi in strihnin parfumom.
kurirčki mi nosijo zastrupljena jabolka
in štorklje pismonoše plesniv kruh.
čakam, da me sence nesejo v nebo in me s primerne višine spustijo, da se razletim na koščke.

vse to je le v moji glavi.

tebe čakam.
čakam, da me poljubiš in zbudiš iz te more.
a poljubi me kmalu, da ne zdrsnem v norost.

Navdih.

2009-07-31T23:24:00.000+02:00

Zakaj so moje pesmi najlepše,
kadar so njih navdih
moji največji propadi?

Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy

2009-07-28T20:52:00.002+02:00

"The Hitchhiker's Guide on the Galaxy has this to say about Love: Avoid if at all possible."

Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy

2009-07-28T20:51:00.001+02:00

"Presidents don't have power, their job is to draw attention away from it."

FORD PREFECT

The Curious Case of Benjamin Button

2009-07-15T22:05:00.002+02:00

For what it's worth, it's never too late. Or in my case, too early to be whoever you want to be.
There's no time limit. Start whenever you want.
You can change or stay the same. There are no rules to this thing.
We can make the best or the worst of it. I hope you make the best of it
I hope you see things that startle you.
I hope you feel things you never felt before.
I hope you meet people with a different point of view.
I hope you live a life you're proud of.
And if you find that you're not, I hope you have the strength to start all over again.

BENJAMIN BUTTON

Just Add Water

2009-07-14T21:12:00.001+02:00

"Funny thing about change; It's like pulling off a bandage - hurts like hell when you do it, but you always feel better after."

MERL STRYKER

"Eno kepico poezije, prosim."

2009-07-06T11:38:00.001+02:00

Akcija skupine Agressive Theatre, na dan drugega sedmega, me ni pustila praznih rok.
Dobil sem svojo kepico, mešano - oranžno in zeleno. Brez podpisa.

oranžna:
MODRA IN ZLATA:

modra in zlata prisotnost:
poslednja ponjava obzorja
poslednje jabolko sonca
ki ob meni žari

modra in zlata daljava:
poslednja brezkončnost v očesu
poslednja zvezda na nebu
na dnu te noči

zelena:
Čas, ki brca

Najslabši letni čas za svet,
niti za svet brez pokopanega časa,
ga ni bilo dovolj.
Kraj zaprt, kraj sam, nedorečen.
Raztopljen v prej za kasneje.
Za kapljo, ki traja brez vode,
vdih mokre oblike v drget,
napeto trepetanje čez obličja,
sprejemanje senc z mirovanjem telesa,
premalo odtisa za kraj, drug.
Niti za obrat premika pod pobeglimi rodovi,
gladino razvrščene sedanjosti,
ga ni bilo, kraja negibnosti, netočnosti, molka,
ki bi bil brez želja in se obdržal.

Namesto nas je udarila pot,
mi do dna, dno nad nami, dno v nas,
da smo dihali z belimi presledki ceste
in se držali s pogledi prekrižanih sanj,
tu si ne želimo več želeti.
Podrli smo hiše, preden so stale,
zaprli okna pred vetrom,
ki bi zgnail slepca do kraja brez zgodovine,
ne bi se imeli kam vrniti kam oditi,
nenehna pot, čas neviden, čas odsoten, čas za nas.

Mi smo, gola umetnost, kost poti, koščica pred vrati.
Živali v nas iz nje odgriznejo zadnji gib,
pod njim nosimo vsak svojo ouščavo,
osvojeno, neznano, pesek, ki brca.

The Convoy

2009-07-03T22:07:00.003+02:00

Melissa: "Why do they call you The Duck?"
Rubber Duck: "'Cos it rhymes with luck."

Rubber Duck: "Nah, my daddy always told me I outta be just like a duck. Said: Stay smooth on the surface and paddle like the devil underneath."

Obožujem ta film. Gledal sem ga miljavžntkrat ko sem bil majhen... In danes sem spet majhen. :)

Dorian Werther Federigo Gray

2009-06-30T22:21:00.003+02:00

lažna številka
ki nas sili, da tekamo
kot kokoši brez glave
med koruzo
in se sprašujemo
"kdo bo pomozlel, če umrem?"
lahko si pri sosedu sposodim
kramp in lopato
in si skopljem grob,
dokler sem čil in zdrav.
pa saj je prepozno. nisem več ne čil, ne zdrav.
včerajšnji sneg, lanski časopis.
lahko iz naslanjača gledam sir, kako plesni
in tebe, kako dozorevaš in nato plesniš
in sebe v ogledalu.
še dobro da imam na podstrejšu skrito sliko
in da pišem pisma svoji nesojeni ljubezni
da ji skuham sokola, ko pride na obisk...
še sreča da mi je ime Dorian Werther Federigo Gray.
nesmrten nesmisel.

Surveillance

2009-06-23T22:46:00.001+02:00

"You probably read the end of the book first, don't you?" - Agent Hallaway

"Yes." - Bobbi

"That's no way to live." - Agent Hallaway

Slam.

2009-05-11T22:46:00.001+02:00

"...My only responsibility is to my fucking dreams! You know what I'm saying? That's my responsibility! Not to no other shit like that!"

Raymond Joshua

Slam.

2009-05-11T22:08:00.002+02:00

"...Freedom isn't out here, it's in here. You can be free anytime you want. Anytime.
Never give anyone the power to take away your freedom. It's yours. It don't belong to nobody but you. Remember that."

~Lauren Bell

"Thirst for love" - Yukio Mishima

2009-04-10T14:24:00.004+02:00

"...Though no human being can be so honest as to become completely false."

*

2009-04-10T11:07:00.000+02:00

*

am very bothered when I think
of the bad things that I have done in my life.
Not least that time in the chemistry lab
when I held a pair of scissors by the blades
and played the handles
in the naked lilac flame of the Bunsen burner;
then called your name, and handed them over.
O the unrivalled stench of branded skin
as you slipped your thumb and middle finger in,
then couldn't shake off the two burning rings. Marked,
the doctor said, for eternity.
Don't believe me, please, if I say
that was just my butterfingered way, at thirteen,
of asking you to marry me.

Simon Armitage

"Manhattan Loverboy" - Arthur Nersesian

2009-04-09T16:35:00.002+02:00

AMY: "... I've always been very sensitive around invalids and sickly types. They disturb me. I can't stay with an irregular person; people who are handicapped or freakish make me sick to the stomach. Quite bluntly, I'm a complete Darwinist. I think runts like you should be drowned like kittens. I'm completely opposed to medical technology's bent for preserving aberrations that never should be permitted. But the truth is, the closest I can really come to love is pity. In fact, I'm completely embarrassed about my love for you. Indeed, you're more of a perversion to me, and perversions are stronger than conventional loves because they're predicated on one's greatest fears and weaknesses. I really wish I could get out from under these feelings for you. They must be kept in utter secrecy."

"Manhattan Loverboy" - Arthur Nersesian

2009-04-09T16:30:00.002+02:00

"I love you," she said without mitigation or hesitance. "I always fight when put on the defensicve, and you have thes way of putting a girl very much on the defensive. But I also realized that in many ways you're everything that I was ever looking for. When I wasn't with you, I realized that I couldn't stop thinking about you. Have you ever felt this way?"
Yes, I had a severe rash once. When I wasn't scratching, I was thinking about scratching it. I managed to bend my mouth a smile.

World Haiku Assiociation

2009-04-02T16:48:00.001+02:00

Po novem poznan po celi obli!
Moj prispevek za 65th WHA HAIGA CONTEST

Železnica #3

2009-04-01T12:58:00.001+02:00

Železnica #3
Originally uploaded by CalypsoFolie

igle.

2009-03-01T15:09:00.002+01:00

v svoje telo
v velikanskih odmerkih
vbrizgujem slabo vest,
ker pomaga,
da mi srce hitreje bije.
obožujem občutek, ko me oblije hladen pot.
svojo dušo barvam na črno,
beležim grehe.
zapiske shranjujem v skrinjici, ki jo hranim pod posteljo.
po žicah pošiljam obtožnice sam sebi.
samomor je preveč preprost.
z ljudmi se pogovarjam samo,
da me lahko gledajo zviška.
če čutiš isto kot jaz,
si ravno toliko
gol
nesramen
licemerski
s skrhanimi, zarjavelimi iglami si prebadam kožo.
opazujem kako se cedi
in pišem pismo
nekam v preteklost
kličem tvojo kožo in tvoj glas
moj odmev bolj boli kot igle.

taka.

2009-02-01T14:56:00.003+01:00

sprana ljubezen.
oprana vseh črnih misli
in preteklosti.

nasmehi na obrazu ne puščajo sledi,
marveč orjejo brazde za solze.
in te so večne.

vseeno mi je če sveti sonce
ali sije luna.
ko odvržem krila sem sam.
vedno.

tudi ko si izdolbem oči,
sem še vedno sam.

vseh rožam sem že porezal cvetove.
vsem ogledalom razbil odsev.
ko začutim toplo kri iz žile na vratu točno vem,
zakaj si taka.

svetlobna hitrost. / nočna mora.

2008-12-27T14:24:00.003+01:00

včasih se me lotiš
iz daljave
iz preteklosti
v prihodnost
nraavnots sozkem

prikazenduhsladkesanjemora
in ne vem zakaj ravno jaz

kris emi odsla dkob ei zl ijev ens ko zio čii nus ta
us tn icer azp ade jovp ep el
kris e...

včasih se mi zdi, da moram nazaj.
včasih vem, da moram naprej.
včasih si tudi ti nemočna.
včasih te premagam,
požanjemssrpompoljubimznožem

oženil sem se s prihodnostjo.
a rpetkoletsi ne uidem
pa čeprav so moje misli htriešje kot svetlobna hitrost.
spet se me je lotila nočna mora.

zvezda.

2008-12-22T18:31:00.002+01:00

preštejem rebra
na starem radiatorju
preštejem utripe do...
z granato v levi,
tvojo dojko v desni,
kričim ljudem naj se umaknejo
naj pustijo prosto pot
~~mojim sanjam~~ REVOLUCIJI
če ne, jih poteptam
vse lenuhe, vse narkomane, vse učitelje,
vse pedofile, vse bankirje, vse mornarje,
vse nogometaše, vse lažnivce, vse pesnike,
oblečem se v astronavta
in se izstrelim v prsni koš
predsednika, direktorja, ministrstva,
poštarja, olimpijskega prvaka,

neham z ~~sanjanjem~~ morijo, saj me že vest peče.

znova preštejem rebra na radiatorju.
znova preštejem utripe.

iz kraterja na luni mi mežika moja zvezda.
moja zaljubljena/zastrupljena zvezda.

všeč.

2008-12-03T19:20:00.001+01:00

čisto prijetno,
čisto potiho,
se kopam v soju morilčeve sence.
medtem pa...

tudi njej je bilo všeč.

2008-11-19T00:03:00.008+01:00

Dokler se blog ne prebudi iz zimskega spanca,
ali samo pokuka iz votline,
če je mogoče sneg že skopnel,
-->NASVIDENJE NA FLICKRJU!<--

gestapo.

2008-11-12T09:38:00.002+01:00

zalivam rože na balkonu
in opazujem, kako nuklearna zima
tiho razjeda soseščino.

likam svojo gestapo uniformo
v upanju na boljše čase.

"P.S.:"

2008-11-02T03:15:00.005+01:00

...post scriptum s kančkom ironije:
Vsaka čreda ovac potrebuje svojega ovčarja.

takoj se porodi vprašanje:
"Kaj pa če nisem ovca?"

še hitreje od nekje prileti odgovor:
"Vsak je ovca. Pridi, ti nadanem številko."

propad.

2008-11-02T01:38:00.003+01:00

moj vzor je postal egocentrik.
sociopat.

in sem ostal sam na križpotju.

me...

2008-10-28T13:32:00.001+01:00

včasih sem sam
med odpadlim listjem iščem jagode
iglice, poljube
in če plavam pod/nad/med oblaki,
zaljubljen v prodane duše,
me...

Gallery Of Ghosts

2008-10-19T16:07:00.000+02:00

to love is to die.

2008-10-18T21:25:00.000+02:00

čakam nate.

2008-10-16T13:58:00.001+02:00

čakam nate.
sam.
v votlini polni netopirjev in
spominov, ki bi jih najraje
pozabil.

šelesti.

2008-10-15T22:49:00.003+02:00

medtem ko noži plavajo okoli mene
se mirno potapljam v tvoje poljube
pa čeprav se mi dozdeva
da je to mogoče zadnjič
da sem ponaredek
vrtiš moje lase med prsti

medtem ko jadrava
po valovih
skritih očem
skritih preteklosti
skritih...

kot na morju, slišim sirene
medtem, ko jadra utripajo
ko se poljubi bleščijo
ko kri šelesti.

primerjava.

2008-09-29T21:28:00.002+02:00

včasih sanjam nepovratne poljane.
s pridihom smrtno plave.
namesto sence mi sledijo drugi,
izza vogala prežijo lepotice.
jaz pa še kar bežim.
oblaki se včasih sklanjajo nadme,
kot da bi me hoteli poljubiti.
ali pa pojesti.
od tam pa v rjuhe, ki jih vlačim čez avtocesto,
ki jo želim prekriti s snegom,
takim, belim. ne takim kot je zares.
krvav in zaznamovan.
takim, ki briše sledi. tak ni moj.
moj je bolj;
za vsak slučaj najamem kočijo pod lučkami
čeprav dežuje in mi je voda odnesla posteljo in zavest.
se iz cigarete še vedno kadi.
sploh ni strupena,
če jo primerjam s sanjami.

ljubezensko pismo.

2008-09-01T09:58:00.002+02:00

če se še tako močno trudim
in te zabadam z nožem,
še vedno čutim
tvoje zobe v mojem hrbtu.
tvoj jezik na moji koži.
tvoje ustnice...
odrezal jih bom.
to bo podpis
pod moje ljubezensko pismo.

žal ji je.

2008-05-28T22:43:00.005+02:00

čisto mirno, počasi, vstopi v sobo,

tiho, po prstih hodeč.

vrata, od strahu, da bi zaškripala,

odpre le toliko,

da lahko vstopi,

sapice svetlobe se plazijo pod vrati,

božajo ji gležnje.

hlad ji napada kožo.

v odgovor se ta naježi.

vsepovsod.

sredi sobe, kot na svetišču,

zgrajenem v neki drugi dobi,

za neke druge namene.

na škrlatno rdeči blazini,

obrobljeni z strupenimi vrtnicami,

ki zlovešče sevajo svoje črne misli.

čaka.

njo.

samo njo.

njo, samo.

prime ga v roke,

pogladi,

porine.

ljubila se je z nožem,

poljubila s smrtjo.

The Fall Of Max Payne - A Film Noir Story

2008-05-01T13:49:00.002+02:00

"The genius of the hole:
No matter how long you spend climbing out,
you can still fall back down in an instant."

MAX PAYNE

The Fall Of Max Payne - A Film Noir Story

2008-05-01T13:48:00.001+02:00

"The past is a gaping hole.
Your only chance is to turn around and face it.
But it's like kissing the lips of your dead Love, darkness waiting in the hole of her mouth."

MAX PAYNE

The Fall Of Max Payne - A Film Noir Story

2008-05-01T13:47:00.002+02:00

"Vlad was right. There are no choices.
Nothing but a straight line.
The illusion comes afterwards, when you ask:
"Why me?" and "What if?"
When you look back, see the branches, like a pruned bonsai tree or a forked lightning.
If you had done something differently, it wouldn't be you, it would be someone else looking back, asking a different set of questions."

MAX PAYNE

The Fall Of Max Payne - A Film Noir Story

2008-05-01T13:43:00.001+02:00

"All this time, we got the fable of sleeping beauty wrong.
The Prince didn't kiss her to wake her up. No one who's slept for a hundred years is likely to wake up.
It was the other way around.
He kisses her to wake himself up from the nightmare that brought him there."

MAX PAYNE

The Fall Of Max Payne - A Film Noir Story

2008-05-01T13:37:00.001+02:00

"Everything is subjective.
Choices, answers, good
and evil."

MAX PAYNE

CalypsoFolie

2008-04-02T13:43:00.004+02:00

s poševno pisavo izražam naklonjenost,
z nasmehom odganjam ~~suženjstvo~~
plastične poljube hranim za hinavce
ampak tebe. . . .tebe LLjubim

vzemite to kot uvod v moj nov blog, CalypsoFolie.
Zaradi vsesplošnega pomanjkanja časa, bo oblikovno žal napredoval počasi.

prve živali.

2008-03-30T03:24:00.001+02:00

v senci topov in ljubezni
prejšnje generacije.
v objemu kuščarjev.
pod mostom med tam in zdaj.
kjer zaljubljena srca poganjajo mlade kalčke.
kjer se pajki ljubijo s svojimi sanjami.

tam so se rodile. prve živali.

Dr. Strangelove (or How I learned to stop worrying and love the bomb)

2008-03-11T19:02:00.002+01:00

Sir! I have a plan!
[stands up from his wheelchair]
MEIN FÜHRER! I CAN WALK!

DR. STRANGELOVE

Dr. Strangelove (or How I learned to stop worrying and love the bomb)

2008-03-11T19:00:00.002+01:00

Gentlemen! You can't fight in here, this is the war room!

THE PRESIDENT

Norwegian Wood (Haruki Murakami)

2008-02-22T16:55:00.001+01:00

"...It is a game. I don't give a damn about power and money per se. Really, I don't. I may be a selfish bastard, but I'm incredibly cool about shit like that. I could be a Zen saint. The one thing I do have, though, is curiosity. I want to see what I can do out there in the big, tough world."
"And you have no use for 'ideals', I suppose?"
"None. Life doesn't require ideals. It requires standards of action."
...
"Tell me, Nagasawa," I asked, "what is the 'standard of action' in your life?"
"You'll laugh if I tell you," he said.
"No I won't."
"All right," he said. "To be a gentleman."
I didn't laugh, but I nearly fell off my chair. "To be a gentleman? A gentleman?"
"You heard me."
"What does it mean to be a gentleman? How do you define it?"
"A gentleman is someone who does not what he wants to do but what he should do."

NAGASAWA & TORU

multilingvizem.

2008-02-11T13:07:00.001+01:00

odločil sem se, da že objavljene pesmi prevedem v angleščino.
prevodi bodo prilepljeni pod izvirnike.

vrstni red prevajanja bo naključen:)

La Science des Rêves

2008-01-28T23:23:00.001+01:00

This girl is, at once, all the women, that broke my heart.
She is so beautiful and generous
and she is asking me to leave...
Because she's dumping me.
She's dumping me, because I am a cheap drug dealer.
And I am a drug dealer, because she wants to leave me.
The police are going to get me now. This is all my fault.

STEPHANE MIROUX (dreaming)

nočeš?

2008-01-21T20:02:00.003+01:00

veš,
kot luna in sonce sva.
ti izžarevaš neverjetno toplino,
razumevanje, modrost, ljubezen,
jaz pa sem svetlobna leta stran.
le senco mečem na ta svet,
kadar te zagledam, zažarim.
žal pa se te nikoli ne dotaknem.

vsak dan bi ti z jezikom zloščil čevlje do ogledalnosti.
iz zobotrebcev zgradil eifflov stolp, samo zate.
s šminko prebarval travo v rdečo preprogo.
ko bila bi žejna, bi si puščal kri!
odrl se, da bi te pozimi ogrel!

ne opaziš?
ne veš?
nočeš?

in tako naprej v neskončnost...

- - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - -

our echo is in the air
we shine light and dark
like the sun and the moon.
you are the light.
the love, the understanding, the wisdom.
and i am light years away.
just casting a shadow upon this world.
whenever you're in sight, i glow, radiant.
but i can never touch you.

i would polish your shoes to mirrorness every single day.
i would build a new eiffel tower from toothpicks, just for you.
paint the grass into a red carpet with lipstick.
i would bleed myself to quench your thirst.
i would skin myself, to keep you warm in winter.

you don't seem to notice.
do you not want to?

an infinity of this is repeating itself.

(don't want.)

dotakni.

2008-01-19T17:27:00.001+01:00

drugi ne vedo.

vse kar imam, zamenjam
za čopek tvojih las.
za priložnost, da se te dotaknem,
da se mi ustavi čas.

oropal bi bolnice.
za požirek tvoje krvi.
oropal rdeči križ.
za obleke, ki nosila si jih ti.

drugi ne vedo.

ti v sebi nosiš vso ljubezen,
ki je bila in ki še bo.

odpovedal bi se življenju,
za en sam poljub
za eno samo sekundo
tvoje pozornosti.

sem le nemočna vešča,
ki se lepi na tvojo luč.

dotakni se me, prosim...

cliché.

2008-01-17T21:10:00.000+01:00

i love you, because you are creative.
i love you, because you are talented.
i love you, because you are beautiful.
i love you, because you make me feel like
i am standing next to the sun, when i'm
really just in your presence.
i love you, because you radiate love
and understanding.
i love you, because you make me forget
i am not whole (without you).
i love you, because you don't know about this.
i love you, because i know, you will never feel the same.
i love you, because you make me feel like i don't
deserve to even know you.
i love you, because you are the sun.
i love you, because you are all of the stars and the moon.
i love you, because you are my muse.
i love you, because you are yourself.
i really do.

as always, a lie

2008-01-12T23:39:00.001+01:00

as always.
with strands of strangled hair
deceived.
and i thought...

how can you be who i want?
how can you be who i need?

you don't know me well enough
to fake it.

- - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - -

i've been dealt a forgiving hand
i shoot and kill with kisses

do you know a better way to die?

i'm making up a brilliant plan
avenging all my blisters

how i wish for a way out,
that wouldn't be a lie...

nikoli.

2008-01-12T16:47:00.001+01:00

tvoj obledel glas...

vsako sekundo se znova zagledam
v mreži lažnih čustev in spominov,
vsakič znova se zavem,
da te ne morem pogrešati,
če te nikoli ni bilo.

ni.

2008-01-07T14:31:00.000+01:00

pot je prosta, a izbira ni.
kristalno modre oči,
vabijo, kličejo, želijo si...

tudi pomoči ni.
le stran,
le drugam,
srce si želi.
ampak!resničnost me lovi
lačna zver,
varen nikjer.
tudi konca in miru ni...

X!X!X!X!X!X!X

2007-12-31T23:59:00.000+01:00

après moi le déluge...
izvinite, molim vas... ali...trebam...sve da ubijem. znate...

the old year is gone.

i sada...
trebao bi da se... tutto zaključi.
znate...

ja sam...htio sam da me nikad niste bili upoznali, ali...
moje ime je satan.

and now, i call my wrath upon yee, who haveth not the right to see the new year arriveth...uhm...well, everyone!

questa volta, la speranza e gia finita.
come il resto of the mondo.

adesso, fratelli miei, cantiamo.

Incest

2007-12-30T20:39:00.001+01:00

FRANVAL: "Ne, gospod, ne, na svetu ni nič resničnega, nič, kar bi si zaslužilo hvalo ali grajo, nič, kar bi morali nagraditi ali kaznovati, z eno besedo, nobenega resničnega zla, nobenega zanesljivega dobrega."

MARQUIS DE SADE

The heart is deceitful above all things

2007-12-28T12:03:00.001+01:00

The heart is deceitful above all things, and desperately wicked: Who can know it?

Jeremiah 17:9

The Devil's Advocate

2007-12-28T00:24:00.003+01:00

Kevin Lomax: What about love?
John Milton: Overrated. Biochemically, no different, than eating large quantities of chocolate.

The Devil's Advocate

2007-12-28T00:24:00.001+01:00

John Milton: Let me give you a little inside information about god.
God likes to watch. He's a prankster.
Think about it.
He gives man INSTICTS! He gives you this extraordinary gift and then what does he do? I swear, for his own amusement, his own private cosmic gag reel he sets the rules in opposition.
It's the goof of all time.
LOOK, but don't touch.
TOUCH, but don't taste.
TASTE, don't swallow.
And while you're jumping from one foot to the next, what is he doing?
HE'S LAUGHING HIS SICK FUCKING ASS OFF!
HE'S A TIGHT ASS!
HE'S A SADIST!
HE'S AN ABSENTEE LANDLORD!
WORSHIP THAT? NEVER!

Kevin Lomax: Better to reign in hell than to serve in heaven, is that it?

John Milton: WHY NOT?

krri.

2007-12-25T20:40:00.001+01:00

v mlaki krrvi...
ali so to solze?
ali pa etanol.
mmm...odišavljen tekoči vosek (aroma: smrt)

namesto odprtega tretjega očesa imam odprto rano.
vsak metek, ki potuje skozi glavo / srce,
le masira misli / čustva.
vsakega čutim.
vsak me boža.

kadar poljubom teče kri so najbolj iskreni.

konec.

2007-12-23T22:23:00.000+01:00

nož v hrbtu.
mojem hrbtu.

boli.
še bolj, ker...
zabodlo (umorilo) me je lastno srce.

Candy

2007-12-21T02:10:00.003+01:00

When you can stop, you don't want to.
When you want to stop, you can't.

CASPER

The Number 23

2007-12-21T02:10:00.001+01:00

Be sure your sin will find you out.

The Numbers 32:23 (The Bible)

The Number 23

2007-12-21T02:09:00.003+01:00

There's no such thing as destiny.
There are only different choices.

Some are easy, some aren't.
Those are the really important ones.
The ones that define us as people.

WALTER SPARROW

The Number 23

2007-12-21T02:09:00.001+01:00

Time is just a counting system.
Numbers, with meaning attached to them.
Isn't it?

WALTER SPARROW

vredne poljuba.

2007-12-13T22:14:00.000+01:00

prežim iz senc.
obrabljen casanova
tako ste lepe v svojih zadnjih vzdihljajih,
ko vam curlja kri iz srca.
vredne poljuba.

barve vesolja.

2007-12-12T10:11:00.001+01:00

zelenačrna
rozarumenabela
rdečainsmrt

Vzemite to kot uvod v moj novi blog, kjer se ukvarjam izključno s haikuji.
kameninnamorato.blogspot.com

AbecedariumNovus

2007-12-05T20:25:00.001+01:00

imam nov projekt:)
čekidaut!
abecedariumnovus.blogspot.com

vabim vas, vse, da prispevate.
objavil bom vse prispevke.

Ali Bi Enigme Celi Eksistenci Dale Aktualnost? (5)

2007-12-04T21:43:00.001+01:00

AlibijiBarabCikličnoČezmernoDrezajoEnoličnostFilmskihGniloživk
HitreIntervencijeJezijoKraljeveLažniveMorilce
NasilniOrganiPreganjajoSolzaveŠolarke
TRINITRODUŠAUbijaVest
ZakajŽalujem?

Wish

2007-12-02T01:08:00.001+01:00

I'm the one without a soul,
I'm the one with this big fucking hole!

NINE INCH NAILS

List Of Demands

2007-12-02T01:04:00.001+01:00

We aim to remember,
What we once chose to forget.
God is just a baby
And her diaper is wet.

SAUL WILLIAMS

The Ritual

2007-12-02T00:55:00.000+01:00

God and pussy
Objects of desire and ill repute
Some rather seek up high than dig and grind at inner truth
The angel of my eye, a bit too fly to substitute
With any other form than the Messiah's
Black Marriah, mothership, grandmother, moon and sea
The wave of form of beauty born of Eden's apple tree
And every single Adam stands erect and prays to be
The follower she offers sweet communion

Holy union
Let me see you run it just like that
Move your hips from side to side, come forward, push it back
Let me know first hand the land of glory that I lack
I surrender all to you, if you surrender back

SAUL WILLIAMS

Taxi Driver

2007-12-01T23:58:00.000+01:00

Now I see it clearly.
My whole life is pointed in one direction.
I see that now.
There never has been any choice for me.

TRAVIS BICKLE

Taxi Driver

2007-12-01T23:26:00.000+01:00

I think that cancers make the best lovers.

IRIS

Taxi Driver

2007-12-01T22:21:00.000+01:00

Loneliness has followed me my whole life. Everywhere.
In bars, in cars, sidewalks, stores, ... Everywhere.
There's no escape.

TRAVIS BICKLE

Taxi Driver

2007-12-01T22:19:00.000+01:00

All my life needed was a sense of some place to go.
I don't believe that one should devote his life to morbid self attention.
I believe that one should become a person, like other people.

TRAVIS BICKLE

premor.

2007-11-30T20:48:00.001+01:00

1.. 2.. 3..
2.. 2.. 3..
PAAAVZA.

trinitroduša!

2007-11-29T00:43:00.001+01:00

sanje čutnosti:
praskaš me do kosti, a uživam
z mojo črno krvjo te umivam
drsava po ognju rdeče svetlobe
iglo rinem, dokler te ne prebode
in kričiva, dokler se ne konča
in letiva, dokler ne prideva do meja
igra usode:
s praznimi žepi pred mesijo klečimo
zopet čakamo, da obred gre mimo
inpraznemolitveinognjišeboljgorijo
innimamosevečkjeskritiin
inpuščicevsivihsrcihinčrnemisliinhladnipogledi
injedrskiposkusin
volkovi na vidiku,
izpolnjene jim sanje
po koncu obreda
pride mesarsko klanje
neskončnost upanja:
včasih rabiš le en topel pogled,
da ti prebije led, da ga stopi
vsi mrzli okovi se razblinijo
solze ne mrazijo več na licih
in poljubi so naenkrat iskreni
in misli se pobelijo, kot sneg
in metulji in cveti in sonce
in vonj ljubezni...

(slike + navdih -> Alenka Čož - Trinitrotoluolna trihotomija duše)

zebe me.

2007-11-22T23:46:00.001+01:00

veter boža mene in cigaret med mojimi prsti
objema me.
šepeta mi da bo vse v redu.

zebe me.
ne vem zakaj sem mislil da morajo vsi razumevajoči objemi biti topli...
zebe me.

ni.

2007-11-22T22:38:00.001+01:00

praskam po intermreži,
nekaj iščem
a še sam ne vem koga.

nekoga da zapolni praznino?

milijon linkov do milijon strani in milijon slik in milijon besed.
a praznina je le še bolj prazna.
poveš mi, da...
pričakuješ me.
oz. ne.
ni res.
ne pričakuješ me.
ne želiš si me.
sovražiš me.

ne, pretiravam.

iščem objem.
iščem poljub.

a tega na intermreži ni.

Talk Show Host

2007-11-20T20:30:00.001+01:00

I want to be someone else,
or I'll explode.

RADIOHEAD

Girl, Interrupted

2007-11-16T22:16:00.001+01:00

Was I ever crazy?
Maybe.
Or maybe life is.

SUSANNA

Girl, Interrupted

2007-11-16T22:15:00.001+01:00

Crazy isn't being broken,
or swallowing a dark secret.
It's you or me,
amplified.

SUSANNA

želim.

2007-11-14T13:19:00.001+01:00

i dream up a life, i dream i am free to be
sanjam da trkaš, sanjam da si
who i want, but i know it can't be true
v moji postelji, sanjam da si tu
i can't call you mine, i can only scream
koža lasje roke, in ti, ti veš da si te želim.

haunting me.

2007-11-14T13:12:00.001+01:00

tvoje slike mi šepetajo v uho
they hold my hand as i walk the streets
your forgiving eyes tell me it's ok

na eni sliki pa je senca
the other one, like dracula
drinks my blood and drinks my thoughts

and i follow the map to your house
lepa, nasmihaš se mi z okna
but,
SENCA!

i lie to myself - zbudim se iz sanj
kot obešenik, brez moči - you're still haunting me.

prazne obljube.

2007-11-14T12:15:00.001+01:00

zakaj se prepričujem,
da če te jaz tam poljubim,
oteklina izgine?

nisem tvoj mesija.

nasedam na svoje prazne obljube.

(žespet)

2007-11-12T18:16:00.001+01:00

ko mi serviraš
novo dozo resničnosti
in se zavem
da te gleda nekdo drug
da te boža nekdo drug
da te objema nekdo drug
da vate rine nekdo drug
mi (žespet)
POČI SRCE!

Eraser

2007-11-12T18:15:00.001+01:00

Need you,
Dream you,
Find you,
Taste you,
Fuck you!
Use you!
Scar you!
Break you!
LOSE ME!
HATE ME!
SMASH ME!
ERASE ME!
KILL ME!
KILL ME!
KILL ME!
KILL ME!
KILL ME!
KILL ME!
KILL ME!
KILL ME!

NINE INCH NAILS

WTF!

2007-11-11T23:03:00.000+01:00

I'm fighting everyone at once and I'm winning!
You can't think of me as you did in the beginning!

SAUL WILLIAMS / TRENT REZNOR

s samoto.

2007-11-10T11:37:00.001+01:00

kradem telesa na internetu.
posvojim roke posiljevalca.
objemam sence obupa.
kaj mi sploh še ostane drugega?

poljubljam se s samoto.

Parabol

2007-11-09T22:01:00.001+01:00

So familiar and overwhelmingly warm
This one, this form I hold now.
Embracing you, this reality here,
This one, this form I hold now, so
Wide eyed and hopeful.
Wide eyed and hopefully wild.

We barely remember what came before this precious moment,
Choosing to be here right now. Hold on, stay inside...
This body holding me, reminding me that I am not alone in
This body makes me feel eternal. All this pain is an illusion.

TOOL

Memento

2007-11-09T19:31:00.000+01:00

I have to believe in a world outside my own mind.
I have to believe my actions still have meaning,
even if I can't remember them.
I have to believe that when my eyes are closed, the world is still here.

Do I believe the world is still here?
Is it still out there?

Yeah.

We all need mirrors to remind ourselves who we are.
I'm no different.

LEONARD

Memento

2007-11-09T19:29:00.001+01:00

I've probably tried this before.
I've probably burned truckloads of your stuff
Can't remember to forget you.

LEONARD